I felt exhausted after work today.
I usually only do 3 focus sessions (50 minutes of focused copywriting work followed by a 10 minute break) in the mornings. But today I did 5 back-to-back and it drained me!
After the 5th session it was 2:30 and I was mentally drained and super hungry. Even after lunch it was hard to recover. Then right after work I immediately went into the house and started cleaning the kitchen (not relaxing for me).
I got grumpy and irritable (I know because my wife said so). Then I did something I haven’t done for at least a week or so. I went for a walk.
Do you ever wonder if it’s better to focus on habits or goals?
For the longest time I was more into goals than habits. I’d dream big and write down things I wanted to do like: quit my job, buy a house, summit Mt. Rainier.
I like goals because they inspire me. But then I started to get too obsessed with the “process” of goal setting. And somewhere along the way, the goal setting process became what it was about more than the actual goals/dreams.
Chai and journal this morning outside.
It’s hard to maintain daily habits because eventually the newness of them wears off and they feel like work.
For example, I currently have two daily habits I do: praying for 30-minutes (I’m on Day #59). And publishing a blog post (I’m on Day #265).
But today I didn’t feel like doing either.
I hit snooze 3–4 times this morning. My alarm was set for 6:15 but I didn’t crawl out of bed until 7:15.
I hate that because instead of “getting a jump start” on the day I feel like I’m starting out behind.
After I showered, made some chai and poured cereal for the girls, I walked out to my office and thought, “Ugh, I have to do my habits before work starts.”
On June 4, 2017 I decided to start a new daily prayer habit.
So for the last 3 weeks I’ve been praying at least 30 minutes a day. Some prayer sessions have been great. I sense God’s presence and feel like I’m praying in power and with authority.
But most days I feel like I’m just going through the motions.
My prayers feel lifeless and I fight thoughts that whisper, “Josh, you’re becoming so religious by turning a life-giving thing like prayer into a dead habit. You’re wasting your time.”
Thank you Accuser, you’re so “encouraging.”
When I get thoughts like that I go back to the Word to meditate on the truth.
I did that today. I read James 5:17–18 that says:
I jumped out of the hotel bed at 11:45 p.m.
“What are you doing?” my wife asked.
“I almost forgot to do my 100 pushups!”
It was dark but I knew she was rolling her eyes at me. But I didn’t care. All I cared about was not breaking my chain.
And the thought of almost going to sleep without doing my 100 daily pushups freaked me out (yes, weird things freak me out)!
So I pumped out 100 pushups, drank some water and hopped back in bed at midnight.
I started doing 100 pushups a day on March 4, 2013. My unbroken chain lasted 777 days in a row before I quit.